The very fact that I am not frightened anymore
I keep searching for fear like I would a friend I miss.
I’ve lived with her for so long
That it feels strange not to have her around.
My heart opens to love
And then hits that invisible wall
Which cautions and hold back.
Which prevents me from loving
With the innocence of the past.
And then I realise that fear is besides me once again
Only she now has a different face.